My “friend” took my sort of ex on a date today. Thought I’d sing a song about it.
Santeria by Sublime
…now that the one person I could always talk to isn’t available,
I can try and sleep,
Maybe hope for a dream,
You and I smiling,
Warmth radiating from the connection we share,
Speaking once again,
Holding on to every last word you say just in case it’s the last one,
A bright world with a beach breeze and infinitive positivity,
Too bad I can’t sleep…
So I’m cold and alone in this dark room.
I remember when you used to read these things.
I wonder if you’d still be interested.
Now I’m holding on to the hope that you might still check this page even if it is unrealistic.
Goodnight. I miss you.
For some reason this is really how I’m feeling right now. Just the whole mood of this song. There is absolutely nothing wrong with this song. It is literally perfect. The story at the end reminds me so much of elementary school. Story of my life.
Soo…I’m kind of a waste of space
They should just kill me off
and replace me with someone better
He will look the same as me
more attractive of course
He will be able to do everything I can do
but even more than that
He is exactly what you want him to be
and at the same time is exactly what he wants to be
He never lets you down
and he’ll never treat you poorly
He always looks out for other people
and never make you feel uncomfortable
He will show up to school in my place
and everyone will say,
"Gee John Henry when did you get so awesome?"
"I was worried there for a second"
"My wish came true, you are a completely different person. The person I always wanted you to be"
The other me will be happy
and people will be happy with the other me
The other me will have a perfect life
and the people that surround him will too
He’s the me I wish I could be
But he’s the me I can’t be
And I hate the me I can be